I was almost where you are back in 2001. I had been harassed by my first wife for 8 years on the subject; I'd ditched her and married wife 2.0. I had lost every piece of hunting land I'd ever hunted, but I still managed to get one more. However, in the winter of 2001, my friend who owned that last piece died on his 50th birthday of a heart attack and the land was lost. The thought of hanging it up for good was looming.
I had been prospecting for a piece of hunting land for close to 20 years. That summer, my wife and I made one more attempt, and discovered the 200 acre farm in Bracken County, KY that is ours to this day.
A bunch of things collided to convince me that hunting might not be a a good idea anymore. I'd been out the year before on the Opener and had my foot go bad on me-- had to crawl back to the car. I'd also recently been out hunting in strange territory and nearly walked off a cliff in the dark. Everything seemed focused on getting me to take my place on the couch.
Look, either the itch is there or it is not. Hunting is something you either can't stop in your life or you find something else. It is seldom a pleasant thing. For me, it was those long rides in the car in the dark and the long waits in the cold. I got cold in October and I did not warm up until Christmas. There was going year after year eating tag soup. Missing. There was catching flack from every side, too.
Either giving up hunting is going to work for you or it is not. Best of luck either way.
In closing, I will leave you with the sum total of my writing on the subject, gathered over the past decade or so. The last time I wrote about this was 2010, but their are links to the other pieces.Why do I hunt?